....and we're at 37 weeks.
The last couple of weeks I've spent a few moments to myself thinking, "can I really do this??". I've quickly pushed such absurd thoughts out of my mind and I've made myself busy for distraction. I know, this should be the time I put my feet up and look around saying all is ready, but most of you know that's a very difficult thing for me to do. There is always something that can be cleaned, tidied up, re-organized, etc.
With a week and one day to go before I meet these two precious ones, these two lives I have so heart achingly longed for, my mind is full of what if's. Do all first time moms go through this thought of self-doubt? I'm going to be a mother of two infants....two, 2....(sigh).
What if I can't console both of them at the same time?
What if I don't get them on a schedule?
What if I don't have the strength?
What if they both want to be held?
What if I drop one?
What if the laundry doesn't get done?
What if What if What if?
All silly questions, I know.
The last couple of weeks I've spent a few moments to myself thinking, "can I really do this??". I've quickly pushed such absurd thoughts out of my mind and I've made myself busy for distraction. I know, this should be the time I put my feet up and look around saying all is ready, but most of you know that's a very difficult thing for me to do. There is always something that can be cleaned, tidied up, re-organized, etc.
With a week and one day to go before I meet these two precious ones, these two lives I have so heart achingly longed for, my mind is full of what if's. Do all first time moms go through this thought of self-doubt? I'm going to be a mother of two infants....two, 2....(sigh).
What if I can't console both of them at the same time?
What if I don't get them on a schedule?
What if I don't have the strength?
What if they both want to be held?
What if I drop one?
What if the laundry doesn't get done?
What if What if What if?
All silly questions, I know.
2 comments:
Totally not silly questions, Alexis! I think if you can make it to 37 weeks with TWINS, you can do just about anything! Now that it's getting closer to us bringing home Max and Wes, we are totally having the same thoughts. The thing is with babies (and we've learned this over the last 6 weeks) is that all they really *need* is food, sleep, and love. That's it. And I know I don't know you IRL, but I'm pretty damn sure you can provide those three things for Wyatt and Evie. (((hugs)))
Oh, and you will NOT drop one! I'm sorry, but I had to LOL at that. =)
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